Saturday 16 July 2011

The newborn......

DAY 5.... MOOD: OK

It's been 5 days since my beloved mom passed away..things happened so fast i didn't realize it..but, whatever happens, life must go on..just trying to find the strength to keep on living in this Almighty's world...

ok, moving on...this morning, i finally went back to my mother in law's house...things have gone pretty well...even though my mom is no longer here, i still have another mom...Hjh Safiah binti Wan Daud....she's like a real mother to me n i loveee her soo much...spending time with her made me realize how lucky i am to be in her family....i hope it will last forever....

speaking about new born....hmm..actually i wanna share a good news with all....my niece has finally gave birth to a cutie baby girl this morning....she is soo small...i feel a lil bit relieve to hear about it...at least we are celebrating this new born in our family....i hope she will bring happiness in our lives....ok these are the pictures that i took ...enjoy!


cute right??






some more pics..........


and last but not least............


with her 'Tok Ma'...demm, i've become a grandmother now....(T_T)

BUT I'm too young laa....huhu...

Tuesday 12 July 2011

Kau pergi jua.....................

12 JULY 2011 , 06.55 A.M....HUSM...

Hari yg sgt menyedihkan utk aku......n family...........setelah hampir 59 tahun hidup di dunia ni, akhirnya Allah S.W.T telah membawanya pulang....pulang ke tempat asal kejadiannya....

Almarhumah Rekiah binti Yusoff....ibuku yg tersayang telah pergi utk selamanya....tiada lagi kedengaran suaranya memanggil2 aku setelah aku pulang dr tempat kerja..tiada lagi terdengar gelak tawanya bermain dgn cucu2...dan..tiada lagi jasad yg setia menantiku di depan pintu setiap petang...Allahu Akbar...cepat sungguh masa berlalu...rasanya aku mcm baru saje menemaninya di rumah..menyuapkan makanan ke mulutnya...memicit badannya disaat dia rasa lenguh..tapi skrg...sumenya telah tiada....tiada utk selamanya...


ibu....aku rindukan ibu..disaat ini air mataku bercucuran membasahi pipi...sesungguhnya aku rasa sunyi hidup tanpamu...seolah2 masih terlihat kelibatmu di dalam bilik tidurmu itu....Ya Allah..beratnya dugaan ini...Ya Tuhanku,berikanlah kekuatan utk hambamu ini....semoga kami sekeluarga tabah menghadapi ujian ini...setiap yg berlaku adalah ketentuan-Mu..sesungguhnya diri-Mu lebih menyayanginya drpada kami,,,kami redha dgn ape yg berlaku...ape pun, hidup ini mesti diteruskan...


Kali ni aku dapat kumpul sedikit kekuatan utk menghadapi dugaan ini...yg pasti, aku bersyukur pada-Mu Ya Allah kerana memberi peluang padaku utk berbakti pada ibu sehingga nafas terakhirnya....alhamdulillah..itu adalah hadiah yg sgt berharga buat diriku....semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat-Mu dan semoga dia ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yg beriman.....Amin..Ya Rabbal Alamin....


utk IBU....

Wajahmu... seindah serinya pelangi yang indah
Seharum mawar putih segar berkembang
Wajahmu mengapa sering terbayang di mataku
Sehingga terbawa di dalam mimpiku

Sayangnya... harapan yang selama ini kubawa
Hancur berkecai musnah jua akhirnya
Semuanya bagaikan sebuah mimpi
Oh... Kau pergi jua
Setelah cintaku kini membara
Belum sempat kucurahkah kasihku
Kau pergi tak kembali................




AKU SAYANG IBU.............!

Monday 4 July 2011

~ my name is Akhmar and I'm an EDUCATOR~

Namaste bhai or baihenu....

FYI, it means 'Hi brothers and sisters!' in Urdu..hehehe..love the language..just another day at the office...n it's almost lunch hour now...i usually go out with my girlfriends (Sabrina,Kak Hajar,Kak Yong, Kak Lee n gang)to our fav(really...?) n nearest place..TESCO...n I am counting the time...tik..tok..(^_^)

as for this post, i just want to share a lil bit about me..i know i'm supposed to write this as my 1st entry but i forgot to do so..hehe..my bad,,

Ok, i'm a simple woman who chose to be an educator...why? i like teaching...when i was a kid, i had dreamt of becoming a doctor but since i'm not a huge fan of blood and everything, i said to myself,"stop dreaming and start choosing ur career"..so that was it...i chose to become an educator (this term sounds superior than a teacher..right? :p) basically, i am an English Lecturer at one of the private college in Kelantan..the fun part is, mu husband also works at the same place as i am..hehehe..coincidence?nope...it is perfectly planned and arranged by him...(before we were married)..now we need to act professionally in front of our colleagues...working in the same place has it's pros and cons...what are they?no need to tell la..figure out yourself would u?hehehehe

first time meeting the students...whoaaa....it was quite shocking..some people who weren't ready will definitely get culture shock...was that really bad?YES! hehehe..just kidding...as for myself, well....at first it was kinda hard to adjust with the new environment (since i was a student for a 5 long years of study)and now i have to teach them! everyone has their own ways and techniques of teaching..so am i...i approached them slowly and steadily...once i finished teaching 1 class, i fell soooo relieved! well at least for the first day..there will be more than that coming in front of me...so i gathered as many information as i can get and examined these students' behavior and reactions in the class..alhamdulillah..after a few months, i managed to handle the students...some of them..hmm..wait, some?nope..most of them aren't really good in English..they kinda flunked this subject during SPM. That's why as an educator, I must help these student with the knowledge that i've got from my previous studies...

Being a lecturer especially English is hard...seriously, it is hard!! especially when it comes to some students who didn't know how to read in English...at all! it is a BIG challenge for me and the rest of other English lecturers here..but we try our best to help and educate them..i started working there on May 2009 and it's been 2 years now...wow,i never thought it could be this long...seriously...but, its my destiny..hehehe(really?hmmmm)..and i accept it with open heart...i must say that i kinda enjoy working here..i have taught soo many students..maybe more than 500 of them..hehehe..most of them have a good relationship with me...i still remember when i was in high school, whenever there was a Teacher's Day, the celebration was awesome! students gave presents to their teachers...now, i feel the same thing..some of my close students give presents to me not only on teacher's day, but also on my graduation day as well as my birthday! i am soo touched!....

We, English lecturers also organized some fun and exciting activities like Apple's Day(i received lots of apples!!!!) English Day n Choir Competition...



it was fun,fun and fun! i received so many apples...!hehehe..at the same time, i also teach some Indian dance to students (the idea came after my colleagues realized that I'm a HUGE fan of Hindi movies..)hmm..i teach simple dance only and we just view some Hindi movies video clips and try to imitate them...i have so much fun teaching them and as a result, I become closer and closer with the students!

these are the dancers....before make up


after the performance~ weeeee


besides that, we also join some other activities organized by our college...like sports day, family day n many more...




all i can say is, we are 1 BIG family...yay!

thats all i guess....bubyeeeeeeeee!

Sunday 3 July 2011

yUM2 FluffY muFFins!

hey yawls!

it's 10.30 a.m and i'm feeling a lil bit sleepy...just to convert this feeling, i would like to share with u some pictures of one of my new attempted cooking taken from some a recipe book that i bought few months ago...FYI, if i flip some mags or some recipe books and when my eyes caught some simple yet delicious recipe, i tend to try it at once! call me old fashion but when i wanted to try something new, i will try exactly as what has been written in the book. in other words, it is called as "followed by the book" (my hubby always call me that..;p) but that doesn't really bother me... i keep trying and trying until i achieve what i want...heheehe...

ok. enough about me...now let us spare some moments to view these pictures of fluffy muffins...i've tried two flavours, raspberry and chocolate muffins...(p/s: for raspberry, it's actually blueberry flavor but since i only have raspberry jam, i simply replace it..heheh)...it's very simple n delicious...alhamdulillah...my family love them soo much!
~before~ (Raspberry muffin)

~after...weeeeeeee!~



~these are the pictures for Chocolate Muffin....double + tripple Yummyyyyy!!!~

n some more pic....from different angle..teheeeee...

n more........


...fuh...i feel better now...hehehe...

...(T_T)...

Hiya!


Lately I'm not in a good mood....it's really hard to express but i need to..once i pour everything out, I'll be fine...

it's about my mom..she's sick...as her only daughter/the eldest,i feel bad...i hope i can manage my time to take care of her...for the past 2 weeks i haven't had enough sleep..every morning i wake up feeling dizzy and sleepy...thank GOD i have a wonderful husband who understand my situation...last week i didn't go back to my in law's house just to take of her...i hope this week she will be OK...

it's kinda hard to manage time when u have a husband and a sick mother to be taken care of..luckily, my sis and her family as well as my brother are here to assist me..

to Mommy.....



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